It has been exceedingly hard to write lately. I'm sure you have noticed (especially my bereft Yahoo readers...sorry). I get brief glimpses of inspiration. If I am lucky, I have a scrap of paper, or an old
envelope, or a sticky with dirt plastered to the back. And I write. Or scribble. Or jot down an idea, pretending that after this moment, it will not be lost to me
forever. If I am
not lucky, I miss it. And then the waiting
ensues.
My brain is tired, my heart is tired. My brain is functioning at work though, and for that I am glad. It is a wonderful distraction from
reality.
Nevertheless all of the above, it is time
once again to write
the Christmas
letter. An annual
tradition, which I love. A
tradition started by my Dad. Making it
that much harder to accomplish. What
the hell am I supposed to say?
Hmm, was tortured at my job, then lost my job,
went broke, Daddy died, dog
almost died but then didn't,
Merry Fucking
Christmas! If you like that
approach, well,
let's call it a day.
For the rest of you friends and family, you'll have to wait for
the sweet, poetic version. It
very well may come in a
flash after three things take place: 1)
the battery for my laptop comes, thus fixing all of its problems (let a girl dream - it's Christmas), 2) I get my desk cleaned off (again, the dream...), and 3) I have a steaming mug of holiday tea (or maybe a Jack and Coke) to inspire my fingers to type. And then
there's the finding of the
perfect year's poem for the
back of the letter. Oh, dear.
Aside:
Several of you dear blog junkies may like to
receive the Christmas letter this
year (???)...let me know, and email me your
address. No online letters for this traditional gal. Only
requirements are that you
are not a creepy
stalker (and you know who you are), and you promise not to post my address and
phone number on the
Internet - ahem. Fourteen year old boys posing as middle-aged or
thirtysomethings who just
loooove all my inane insights need not apply.
Love you as always. And
yes, I mean you.
~Ally